The Impossible Life of an Author

The life of a writer is an impossible road. I am a wife, mother, caretaker, Nurse, and this is just a short list. Writing is a dream, and I have been perusing it heavy in the last few years. If I think about it, life itself is impossible. I was born two months early. In 1964 that was a miracle in itself. It was unheard of to survive as a preemie let alone being that early, yet here I am. So I guess if it came down to it family and friends would say I was a good daughter, friend, and mentor, but along with it, they would say impossible. I have always tried to defy the odds. I should have never been born. God saw it differently. I have had vision problems that should not allow me to see but I see as well as someone with 20/20 vision. I shouldn’t have been able to go to college, but I did and graduated in 1990 with not just a nursing degree, but I also had started a Bachelor’s Degree a few years back. I still had a child at home, I was working and still am, full time and now I am writing. Not just short stories but novels. We are talking three and four hundred pages long that I have broken down into smaller books.

In the time since my first book launch, I have written a total of six books. All of them are a first responder and inspirational based. They are as far as I am concerned, not dull. They are based on the knowledge of what I have seen in my lifetime as a nurse. I have been in nursing for over thirty years, and I am using the knowledge that was given to me as a gift from God to spread his word. They may not be the mainstream inspirational but I want them to be real and what people live. God’s people aren’t perfect. They are children, and they learn as they grow. Their sexuality is the same as what is in the normal with one exception, they all will see God or will seek him in the end. If that keeps me from selling my work, or prevents me from selling my work, ok. I do enjoy an excellent saucy read, but I want to see feeling behind it. I have tried to create real characters that are believable. I would tell you stories of my nursing career, but with the act of HIPPA, I am not sure how I can do that. Let’s say all the stories are made up and do not pinpoint any one person.

For years I have been working on writing and publishing these books. None of it has been easy. I have been through four editors. One was an editor/publisher which decided after releasing the first book would not release the second because of its content. I had to go through an entertainment lawyer over that one. By the way, they are a sister company to Penguin Press that published 50 Shades of Gray. The second ended up going out of business in the middle, the third drug their feet and the fourth bullied their way through, holding my manuscript hostage. I have sent it to fifth that finally fixed it well enough to be able to publish. I am far from an English major. However, I feel they should be given a fair shake. In the midst, I hope I haven’t lost my creativity. I have looked at traditional publishing, most of them will not look at your work until you have a following. A small following and next to no reviews will not get an accepting publisher. Unfortunately, I’m teetering.

I am determined to write the next bestseller, and if you dream I guess it’s best to dream big, I want a motion picture out of it. Like I said impossible, right? I am that impossible person. I will succeed. It may not be in my time, but it will be in Gods.

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